it's been so long...

since i've written in this! lol no one even reads it anyways, but whatever haha.
so many things have changed, its so funny reading previous posts!

1. not talking anymore to the person most of my posts were about. like completely not talking. zilch. he's goneeeee.
2. finished highschool, doing interior design at tafe now.
3. got so much things to do, but its things i enjoy doing, so i cant complain :)
4. i've seriously never got this much attention from boys. last year i was the one getting none and the tables have turned, funny hahahaha.

p.s. im going to see chris brown next week!!! and trey songz!

formal outfit

taylor swift burly side bun or alexander wang messy long thick plaits

all i need is to buy the shoes and find accessories !

I NEEEEEEED THESE !

"Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it’s necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable? That’s when you know you found somebody special, when you can just shut the fuck up for a minute, and comfortably share silence."

-Mia, Pulp Fiction

REALLY want this from Tiffany & Co

Last Friday i went out with my work friends for dinner. We were supposed to go to Tony Romas and have all you can eat ribs, but my friend couldn't book it and there was an hour wait, so we just went to the Pizza Hut Buffet. Afterwards, everyone either went home or went out for drinks, but Mai, Cindy and I decided to be super asian and went to Capitol Square ( LOL ). We took asian booth photos and Mai won the leopard print hello kitty for me from those machines :D

new moschinno belt :)

Went to have dinner at some artsy French restaurant for my godmother's birthday at Darlinghurst. The place was sooo nice! They had people drawing a model who looked like she was from the 20's, then a singer who sang jazz and an accordian player. I've heard that my grandpa used to always play the accordian lol

01.02.11

AAAHH. im so annoyed/sad/frustrated. i seriously dont know how im going to get over this. its going to sound stupid to everyone who knows about it but no one understands. just as everything was going so good and i was so happy, it all had to be taken away, just like that. im so tired from not being able to sleep at night, and not only because its been like 3456789 degrees lately but because i think about all these questions like whats going to happen to you? how long will you be gone? whats going to happen after it all? how youre going in there and so on.

you never see it coming, you just get to see it go (8)

that was really really unexpected. good unexpected, but weird too

i've figured it out. my house is a frkn circus.

Too frkn 'stressed out' you can say, lol.

1. Stupid Internet - there is frkn TEN internet users in my house and there isn't enough for everyone. This is all because there is tooooo many people living here !! i hate it. Let me count... theres NINETEEN frkn people here! I wish I could go back to the flat where it was just me and my parents. Now with this house, they gotta pay the loan and that, therefore we need these other people here.

2. School - it's only been 1 week into year 12 and it's freaking too time consuming and leaving me confused about choices.
English- gotta find 3 selective texts (I think) on top of doing like 5 others in class already.
Textiles - major project and i'm like full struggling with making up my mind wih ideas and that.
Art - ANOTHER major project.
Business & Economics - Confused about which to keep and which to drop.
Maths - its frkn maths .

3. Driving - trying the time to fit it in between work, school, church and stuff. So much stuff to remember. Getting too much pressure to do all the hours quickly from my godmother and she doesn't get it that i have more important things to do than get my full driver's licence.

4. People - There are just too many annoying people around me right now. My dad is a constant one. A stubborn girl at school with the designing of our year 12 jerseys. And i don't know what present to get for my friend whose party is on this weekend. "Anything", does.not.frkn.help!

5. Sleep - Because there is so much maths homework, and i can only work late at night when no one is around, I don't get as much sleep as I need.

6. Something is wrong with a gland in my throat. frkn hurts to eat or even drink anything.

I APPRECIATE THAT, THANKS :)

faar out

i just need somewhere to ventilate, so yeahhh this will be a long one lol.

- okay, so you are really confusing me and i dont know what to do with you anymore. its like i cant get myself out of this situation because its been too long and it just keeps going on and on and on. but i know when its over (dont even know how thats gnna happen) i'll miss it.

- in about an hour and a bit i'll be turning 17 ! and im freaking out because i feel like my teenage years are coming closer to an end, nd i want MORE. like i feel like i havent fulfilled it yet as gay and stupid as that sounds. i havent even got any hours for my L's licence!! i could have gotten my P's by now !! :@

- i hate birthday planning. especially if its for me !! things get difficult and i just feel like not doing anything at all.

- another 'you' who i will not mention the name of. we could have been the bestest, that's all i have to say. lol

- year 12 will start sooon and im also freaking out about that! i have 2 major projects - art and textiles - and i dont really knw what i want to do ! i WILL have my breakdown half of term 1, i tell you.

- ANOTHER 'you'; you are one of the cooolest/nerdiest person i know, she stuffed up big timeee, she's missing out!

- and omgg,, people need to get their priorities right, seriously.

UGH, im off to do my nails, ciao x

P.S. do not try and guess who im talking about then ask me. pleaase.

oh wow i really need a hair cut ! my ends are soooo dry and dead, its gross! but i dont want to start all over again trying to get it semi-long =( i could just try putting treatment and stuff in but that'll take a while. ive stopped blowdrying and straightening my hair for maybe a week now and wont start agian any time soon. maybe a short hair cut will be refreshing, but i seriously would not get over how my hair is gone for about a month. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH fml, lol

if that's all there is to 'love', then that's bullshit

So lemme put my books down

Excuse me if i look down

Guess imma little nervous

But i`m at your service

Look at what you took down

And now the good times are coming to an end, and time's pulling as more apart. Stupidly we keep holding on to something that's dead and gone - now we're left with just a mess and a bunch of confusion.

dont think you're irreplaceable